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I'm such a horrible person

Journal Entry: Fri May 9, 2008, 2:34 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Apologize- one republic
  • Reading: twilight - again
  • Drinking: Sprite
I keep saying I'm back, then poof, I'm gone a few more weeks. I've just been so busy. So much has happened.


I have officially crossed the line into stereo type land. Where bleach blonds giggle and talk about nothing but shoes, and rednecks talk with that annoying accent and kiss their sisters.

I'm terrified.

I was bad enough being quite and shy. But then I added the dark cloths and eyeliner.

I was getting closer.

Not to mention my already morbid personality that could make an extremely positive person realize their precious silver lining is corroded and decayed. Or my amazing ability to shatter someones hopes with a mere glance. That had me insight of this horrible place.

But kids I have topped it off.

I, Michael C. Lyons, am on Anti-depressants. To treat depression and my little anxiety problem. Oh, and I have to go see a shrink. Yay, me!

I'm going to be such a happy person. I have enough meds to last me a year....

The anxiety got bad. It was to the point where I was getting chest pains all of the time. It really sucked.

I've officially come to terms with something huge recently. I hope none of you will judge me for it, but I feel pretty confident that you will all understand.

I'm gay.

(insert nervous laughter)

I'm sure some of you may have guessed. But it was still hard for me to say. My now ex-girlfriend knows. She took it better than I did.

And my other close friends know, but no one else. I'm not ready for that yet.

I've been working like crazy, I work a 14 hour shift tomorrow. Yay! And I have to work 6-2 a.m. today.

And I'm hungry. I want a cheese burger. Yum, cheese burger (drools)

So any how, I have to get ready for work. I promise to be on here more often.

BYE!!!!

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~bibigirl:iconbibigirl: May 9, 2008, 3:58:49 PM
hey darling, been missing you!!! hope to see you around more. working those hours sounds abosolutely horrid. says she who doesn't start work until next week :D here's love to you :hug:

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:psychotic: :chainsaw:

... and i wonder why people think i'm scary...
~majesticshadowgirl:iconmajesticshadowgirl: May 9, 2008, 4:58:59 PM
hey nice of you to come out of the closet. welcome to the gay world :)

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Passion... it lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unbidden, it will stir, open it's jaws, and howl. It speaks to us, guides us... passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have?... Passion is the source of our finest moments.
~bbear27:iconbbear27: May 9, 2008, 6:20:25 PM
Yay! You live again! I want a cheeseburger too now... XP

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ITALY =BOOT!!!!
~Prince-Poison:iconPrince-Poison: May 9, 2008, 7:47:51 PM
lol No comments on anything else I wrote?

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"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sick masochistic lion"
~Prince-Poison:iconPrince-Poison: May 9, 2008, 7:48:12 PM
XD Uh, thanks. lol

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"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sick masochistic lion"
~Prince-Poison:iconPrince-Poison: May 9, 2008, 7:48:37 PM
Where are you going to be working?

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"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sick masochistic lion"
~majesticshadowgirl:iconmajesticshadowgirl: May 9, 2008, 9:57:56 PM
if i were to come out of the closet i'd want congrats XD

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Passion... it lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unbidden, it will stir, open it's jaws, and howl. It speaks to us, guides us... passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have?... Passion is the source of our finest moments.
~Prince-Poison:iconPrince-Poison: May 9, 2008, 11:33:29 PM
lol I would congratulate you. XD

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"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sick masochistic lion"
~bbear27:iconbbear27: May 9, 2008, 11:36:47 PM
nope not really. Your life seems interesting but I mean its all good! XP

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ITALY =BOOT!!!!
~bibigirl:iconbibigirl: May 10, 2008, 4:40:13 AM
Datacom - Payserve. basically handling payrolls for teachers in my region... i think... :D i actually think it's a global business. but yeah, that's where i'm going.

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:psychotic: :chainsaw:

... and i wonder why people think i'm scary...